I’m sorry I haven’t posted my monthly journal series since September, and so sorry that I haven’t let you know why, until today.
When I planned my monthly journal series, I had no idea we were going to build a new pottery workshop. When I started my monthly journal series in January of 2018, I still had no idea. Then I got my miracle on January 15, 2018. I will never forget that day, not ever!
We started construction on my workshop the last week of February of 2018 (I really shouldn’t say we, I didn’t do any of the work, my husband did) So, I thought I could continue doing my monthly journal series and I did, until it got to be too much for me. Once my husband was done with most of the work, it was my turn to work in my workshop. I had to unpack a bazillion boxes, twenty-eight years worth of pottery stuff, inventory and equipment. OMG…there were so many boxes. Sometimes, it was overwhelming. I started unpacking my workshop around August 28th I think. There were times when I over did it, and ended up paying for it. That’s because I live with chronic pain and several autoimmune diseases. I also have a herniated disc in my back, between L3 & L4. So, basically, I take two or three steps forward, then one of two steps back. When I over do it or have lots of stress, it’s four or five steps back. That’s when I have to stop and rest for a while. I’m always doing this dance that I don’t want to do and it drives me nuts sometimes! I have so much to do, and my body just won’t let me do what I want to do.
I seriously wish I had a time machine, so I could go back to October 25, 2000 and tell myself not to go to the Chiropractor on October 26, 2000. That day, my life changed forever, because the Chiropractor herniated my disc, and shortly after that I developed Fibromyalgia. My life is broken up into before October 26, 2000 when I had a normal life and after October 26, 2000.
So, by the middle of September I realized that unpacking and organizing my workshop, plotting my book series and doing a monthly journal was too much for me. So, I stopped posting my monthly journal. I also stopped plotting for a few months, and just focused on my workshop and my new pottery designs. Then it was the Holidays, and I found out that shopping at the last minute is not good for Fibromyalgia!!! I’ve been going into Fibro flare-ups over and over again for the last seven months.
There are times when I feel lost, and stranded on a rock with miles and miles of ocean in front of me, with no way of getting to where I want to go.
It’s been a difficult year and a few months for me. So busy, so much stress, so much work! But my workshop is getting there. I still have a few things to organize before I can start working with clay again. I can’t wait!
After taking some time off from plotting, I realized that The Snowflake Method was just not working for me. I’m back to plotting and I think I found just what I need. I’m reading Save The Cat Writes A Novel by Jessica Brody and it’s helping me. Every time I read a few pages I get ideas, things are starting to fall into place, something magical is happening. Over the weekend I wrote a new beginning for chapter one and I really like it. I’ll just place it right before, my original chapter one beginning. My first plot point needed to be pushed back a little. So, now my book opens in Maine, a week or two earlier than it originally opened.
I found a life boat!
So, I’m no longer going to be doing a monthly journal. I just want to focus on plotting my book series and not putting any pressure on myself. I need to find a healthy balance of working with clay during the day (once my workshop is finished), writing at night, and getting enough sleep. And most of all, not over doing it! I also want to start on my character name blog series. That won’t be a monthly thing though. I’ll just post when I can. I just have to keep reminding myself to take baby steps…I’m not wonder woman anymore.
I’ll let you know how things are going with Save The Cat Writes A Novel
Thanks for stopping by!
2 thoughts on “Making Changes”
praying for you Melinda, sounds like you are managing your time . Your health comes first, I know as I am in my 60’s I have learned to pace myself . What my mind wants to do and what my body can do are not always on the same page. May God be your peace and strength in this season of time ! love Jacqui
Thanks Jacqui! I’m working on my time management skills, it’s not my strong suit…yet. I’ve been organizing my book series, even my pottery designs and glaze choices (which I’ve never done before.) I’m trying to pace myself, it doesn’t always work though. When I have a good day, I tend to do as much as possible, because I never know how I’m going to feel when I wake up. But when I do that, I tend to over do it. My body doesn’t tell me to slow down…it’s time to stop. I’ll be fine, and then a few minutes later my Fibromyalgia reminds me that it’s still there. Sometimes, I forget I’m dragging this monster, until it pulls the chain around my ankle, and sometimes I drag three or four of them. That is so true! My mind thinks I’m still twenty, and wants to do so many things and my body is like…no way! Thanks so much Jacqui! Your comment made my day and put a smile on my face. Have a wonderful day! Love Melinda
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